The Story Of Charlie Sparks-less

Dreams of what I could of been

Photo credit goes to sodahead.com

Charlie Sparks-less has had trouble since childhood with concentration. One fleeting thought is continuously replaced with another. Focusing is more of a chore than second nature.

Charlie has never been officially diagnosed. But he believes he has had ADD since childhood. Back when it wasn’t talked about. So many years ago when the times said it was a disease and not a disorder.

Throughout his early learning Charlie Sparks-less was always at a disadvantage with the rest of his class. While the rest of the students were moving forward to new subjects, Charlie was trying to grasp what was being taught in the present. To everyone else, “Charlie was just dumb.” Students, teachers, his siblings and parents shared the same conclusion. “Charlie’s just dumb.”

Back when Charlie went to school there were no “special classes”. You either learned the curriculum, you got by, or you failed. Well, Charlie thankfully got by and didn’t fail. At least he had that much going for him.

Even when Charlie read for pleasure, which he loved to do, he found himself reading things 4 and 5 times just to comprehend what he’d just read. At times realizing he was 100 pages into a book. Seeing the words and hearing them in his head, but lost about what he had just read. Frustration was an understatement for Charlie.

This pattern followed Charlie Sparks-less right through high school. The only problem is when Charlie entered high school he was so far behind the other students he lost interest in school all-together. The academic staff would tell Charlie’s parents that, “he just doesn’t apply himself.”

Well how could Charlie keep up? He was at a disadvantage when he entered into his four-year hell. He tried to keep pace. He read all the material that was given out for homework. But Charlie had to read things five, even six times to comprehend what “normal students” comprehend the fist time around. It took him more hours in a day just to get through two or three of the assignments handed out. How could he possibly get through six or seven?

By the end of freshman year Charlie was completely lost. Do you think a kid at the age of 14 or 15 is going to admit that their lost? Do you think their going to stand up in class and tell a teacher they “don’t get it.” Just for the sake of embarrassment alone their not going to ask for extra help. He did that in the past and got ridiculed, laughed at, called idiot, stupid and a hundred other names. Why would he expose himself again to be the brunt of everyone’s jokes. Even his families.

Charlie went through the next three years of school just getting by. Never really reaching his full potential. Charlie had sharp common sense. His only problem was focusing on the subject at hand. He never could settle his mind on one subject at a time. Thoughts entering his cortex and had vanishing just as quickly. When he could focus, it was short-lived. His mind wandered uncontrollably.

Throughout the rest of his rebellious years in high school Charlie found solace in drugs. This pattern followed him into his early twenties. The only way for Charlie to feel like he belonged was to run in the company of other drug abusers. They weren’t drug addicts per-say. Just abusers running from something. Charlie’s marathon was his mental inadequacies.

When our education system leaves kids like Charlie behind. Does this set a course of just getting by for the rest of their lives? Do these inadequacies manifest themselves into other inadequacies, like Zombies with an electric pulse? Does one inferiority complex mutate into other inferiority complexes?

Leave me some comments below and tell me if you have had an experience like Charlie’s. I’d be interested to know how you’re doing and how life treated you.

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4 comments

  1. That is my experience right now. Even read parts of my blog from as early as January. I’m so glad I found this, so I know I’m not crazy. I’m not officially diagnosed yet, I’m getting tested. Thank you for posting this. My I reblog? 🙂

    1. It would be my honor.

  2. verognzlz21 · · Reply

    Out of five of my siblings 3 of them have been diagnosed with ADD in adulthood. Growing they always got blamed for not applying themselves and not “trying”. Since being diagnosed 2 of my siblings have gone back to school and are now attending college and earning A’s and B’s thanks to the services and resources that they are able to take advantage since being diagnosed.

    1. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment.

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